I guess the problem is that
I made myself elusive to feel
Such love and compassion
From people who tries to
Save me from my endless misery
That they grow exhausted to the
Point where they just give up

I feel such a tremendous, immense
Self-loathing that I can never let go
To not have acceptance even from
My own self brings me so much pain
To have accepted that no one
Will ever find my soul beautiful
Made me prone to not ever feel
An eternal happiness