The thought of being bound in a relationship scares me because then I’d be openly vulnerable to pain, and at one point I’ll be sucked in to somebody else’s world that I might just forget my own. And I don’t want that, I don’t want to be completely dependent to someone else that I forget how to live by myself.

But mostly I’m scared because the moment you get hurt, the moment you lose that trust you carefully place on someone else, it would be difficult to simply just run away — because you’ve put so much on that relationship, that all the pain seems to be worth it.

And when that happens, when I’m ready to give everything up including my pride and my ego, I would be left with nothing.

And ultimately, that is what scares me.